a little bit of peace

i had a hard day today...i kept finding doors closed when i wanted and needed some answers from people. there are other things that made the day hard, too, so tonight i wanted to just get away and get some perspective. so, i started out by the river...its a beautiful place to watch the sunset. Now, I know that I'll get some rolled eyes with this one, but...it was really chilly out by the river and after about 20 minutes, i couldn't be outside anymore. when i left the park, i didn't really know where i was going, i just knew i still wanted to be alone and thinking. so, i did what just about everybody does around 6pm...i went hunting for food. i decided to go south on the main road in ft myers. for those of you who don't know, south from where i live is the airport, and many of you know how i feel about airports. on my way to get food, i spotted an aircraft heading toward the airport, so that's what i did too. and, it made my day. i sat in the cell phone lot and just watched as the airplanes took off and landed. ft myers isn't a very large airport, but its pretty active, especially during snowbird season. sure, i would have rathered to be watching in atlanta or houston, but this did the trick, and besides, you don't get palm trees much in those cities. i was reminded how spectacular the machines that man has built are and that the air that the machines dance with still belongs to our creator. to me, its a beautiful dance to watch. maybe you should check it out sometime...see if you can appreciate it just a little more. :)

i know better

not profound or brilliant, but...surely by now I have learned my lesson...no more coffee at or after dinner time!!!

make my day

I got to be a part of God working today. He loves me and I'm finally starting to really believe it. I just had to share, because it made my day!

discovery

i've recently become a huge fan of Lauryn Hill. she did mtv unplugged in 2002 with an album that is really raw and honest and worshipful (thanks to my friend Wendy who introduced me). i'm still looking for the words to describe it, but its really good. i think you should check it out. http://www.mtv.com/music/artist/hill_lauryn/albums.jhtml?albumId=316654

sin

today's lesson is about sin and saddness. it starts with a lie, and we've all believed it at one point or another. the lie is that my story (the sin that's been done against me, to me...that i've done to others) or your story or the heart-wrenching story that we see on the news or the tragic story of the girl sold to monsters for sex or even the story of the starving child that sits alone on the side of a dirt street in Africa...i could go on and on, but here's the lie - the lie is that one of those stories is bigger than another. we spend so much time comparing and emphasizing and bloating these stories that we're blind to this truth - sin doesn't have levels in God's eyes. God sees sin and it breaks His heart! and it breaks His heart EQUALLY. i needed to know this...i needed to know that it was ok for me to mourn over sin, all of it no matter how small i thought it was...God's tears flow over all of it.